The Autobiography in Five Short Chapters by Portia Nelson teaches us the value of intentionality in obtaining better results for our lives. Born Betty Mae Nelson on May 27, 1920, in Brigham City, Utah, Nelson was a multi-talented American artist. Known for her soprano voice, she performed in 1950s cabarets, starred in films like The Sound of Music (1965) and Doctor Dolittle (1967), and wrote the deeply reflective book There’s a Hole in My Sidewalk: The Romance of Self-Discovery. This book, which features the poem, is beloved for its honest exploration of personal growth and has been embraced by many, especially in twelve-step recovery programs.

Nelson’s work continues to resonate even after her passing on March 6, 2001. Her music, acting, and poetry remain a source of inspiration, encouraging people to reflect, grow, and find the courage to chart a new course.

I first discovered Portia Nelson’s poem in graduate school at Syracuse University. I was immediately captivated by its raw honesty and simple yet profound narrative of self-discovery. While it takes the narrator five chapters to choose another road, the truth it conveys is universal: we are creatures of habit and comfort.

I have women in my life who long for change but are terrified of it. To them, the pain they know feels safer than the uncertainty of the unknown. They’ve developed coping mechanisms to navigate their pain and, while they grumble about their plight, they remain unwilling to risk change. For them, change represents upheaval, and the thought of stepping into uncharted territory is too overwhelming to bear.

I, however, have always taken the opposite approach. I’ve seen the pain and suffering that stagnation can bring, and I’ve chosen to embrace change instead. I’ve moved across the country to unfamiliar states where I knew no one, started new jobs, and forged new connections. For me, change offers the chance for a better outcome, while staying put feels like a guaranteed path to destruction. That, I determined long ago, was not my portion.

The Poem

In the poem Autobiography in Five Short Chapters, Portia Nelson writes:

Chapter One

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost ... I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.

In Chapter One, Portia doesn’t take ownership for falling into the hole. She didn’t know it was there. How could it be her fault? There were no signs warning her about the hole, no barricades blocking the path, and no one to help her climb out. Of course, it took a long time to escape—it’s her first encounter, and she’s too consumed by the shock of falling to think about how she got there.

Chapter Two

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

In Chapter Two, Portia makes a choice to walk down the same street, fully aware of the hole, but pretends not to see it—and falls in again. She’s stuck in denial, refusing to take responsibility for her decision. This time, she can’t claim ignorance, yet she continues to shift the blame.

We can examine this chapter and see parallels in our own lives. How often do we find ourselves repeating mistakes, convincing ourselves they aren’t our fault, or failing to reflect on our choices? Portia’s experience mirrors what happens when we refuse to learn from past missteps.

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in ... it’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

In Chapter Three, Portia is more self-aware. She sees the hole but falls in anyway—it’s a habit now. This time, however, she takes responsibility. She doesn’t waste time blaming others or making excuses. She owns her actions and gets out of the hole immediately.

How often do we return to situations we know will harm us? Even with awareness, we sometimes choose to fall into the same traps. While taking responsibility and quickly recovering is progress, there’s still a deeper question: why do we keep returning to the same streets?

Chapter Four

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

In Chapter Four, Portia exercises wisdom. She still chooses the same street but avoids the hole. She navigates the danger without falling in. While this is progress, we might question her choice of path. Why does she keep returning to the same treacherous road? Is it familiarity? Habit?

And how often do we do the same—convincing ourselves that as long as we avoid the obvious pitfalls, we’re making the right choice? But are we? Or is there a better, safer route to our destination?

Chapter Five

I walk down another street.

Chapter Five, the shortest and most powerful chapter, shows Portia stepping into true transformation. She has leveled up and is now walking in bravery. This time, she doesn’t just navigate around the hole—she chooses another street entirely.

The path with the hole was wide and familiar, a well-trodden route that many still take. Even when Portia exercised wisdom in avoiding the hole last time, it was wisdom embroidered with foolishness because she was still walking the same dangerous road.

This time, however, wisdom is embroidered with bravery. Portia chooses to forge a new direction. She breaks away from the beaten path, knowing there is freedom in choosing something unfamiliar but better.

And so can we. We don’t have to keep walking down familiar streets just because they’re known or comfortable. We have the courage to step off those paths and chart new ones that lead to greater outcomes. We can be brave.

Choosing Another Path

Portia Nelson's poem is a journey of self-awareness, personal responsibility, and the courage to choose a different path.

"To Thine Own Self be True"
– William Shakespeare, Hamlet

Are you walking in circles, going down the same street with the same hole, falling in, and finding yourself in the same mess?

• Fatigue makes us question our judgment: "I don't have the strength to go through this again."

• Fear makes us stay on the path: "Falling into the hole isn't fun, but it's familiar, and at least I know where I am."

• Bravery makes us choose a different path: "There are better outcomes for my life, and I choose to walk down a different street."

Being brave means stepping into the unfamiliar, but it also means trusting that the outcome will be better. How? Because God is guiding and supporting us, even when we venture into unknown territories.

Choosing a new and unfamiliar path requires both bravery and faith. However, God promises to walk with us every step of the way and to provide guidance wherever we go. Let’s find comfort in His word:

1. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV): "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

2. Joshua 1:9 (NIV): "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

3. Isaiah 43:19 (NIV): "See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland."

4. Psalm 32:8 (NIV): "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you."

5. Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV): "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Beloved, I hope you are inspired and encouraged by Portia Nelson's poem and the hope and trust we find in God's word. He promises to walk with us every step of the way. Forging a new path or going in a direction that is different from everyone else in your life can feel intimidating—but take courage:

Walk in the assurance that God empowers you with bravery and wisdom as you forge new paths in your life.

When I picked up my phone, the scripture for the day from the Bible app moved me:

“During the days of Jesus’ life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with fervent cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission.” (Hebrews 5:7 NIV)

As I spent some time studying the verse I could hear the Lord speaking to me. I was not groveling. I did not need to feel sheepish. My prayer was valid and indeed Jesus too had "fervent cries and tears" during his prayers. And as Hebrews 5:7 tells us his prayers and petitions were heard because of his "reverent submission."

It is comforting to know that God hears and is compassionate towards me even when my prayers aren’t pretty. When I am ugly crying and yelling in exasperation, God listens.

The Lament

The phrase "with fervent cries and tears" (μετὰ κραυγῆς ἰσχυρᾶς καὶ δακρύων), in Hebrews 5:7, captures something profound about Jesus' humanity. The word "fervent" (ἰσχυρᾶς - ischyras) suggests intensity, urgency, and deep emotion - not quiet, composed prayers, but desperate, heartfelt pleading. This is likely referencing Jesus' experience in Gethsemane, where he was "deeply distressed and troubled" and prayed so intensely that his sweat became like drops of blood. The tears show that Jesus wasn't detached from his suffering - he felt it fully, emotionally, physically.

What's striking is that this isn't presented as weakness but as authentic human experience. Jesus, fully divine yet fully human, didn't bypass the raw reality of fear, anguish, and desperate need. He brought his whole self - including his tears and cries - before God.

"Reverent submission" εὐλαβείας (eulabeias) creates this beautiful tension with the fervent cries. Even in his deepest distress, even while pleading desperately, Jesus maintained a posture of surrender to the Father's will. It wasn't passive resignation but active trust - "not my will, but yours be done." The reverence doesn't diminish the fervency, and the fervency doesn't diminish the reverence.

This suggests that bringing our most desperate, tearful prayers to God isn't irreverent - it's actually following Jesus' example. We can cry out with full intensity while still trusting God's ultimate wisdom and timing. Both the emotional honesty and the surrendered heart matter.

Deep Dive

The Greek word behind "fervent" in Hebrews 5:7 is ἰσχυρᾶς (ischyras), which is even more powerful than our English translation might suggest.

ἰσχυρᾶς (ischyras) comes from the root ἰσχύς (ischys), meaning strength or power. It's often used to describe physical strength, military might, or forceful intensity. When applied to Jesus' prayers, it paints a picture of prayers offered with tremendous force and strength - not just emotional intensity, but powerful, vigorous pleading.

This word choice is remarkable because it suggests Jesus wasn't praying weakly or tentatively in his distress. Instead, he was drawing on deep reserves of spiritual and emotional strength to cry out to the Father. His prayers had weight, force, and power behind them - like someone fighting for their life, which in a sense, he was.

The combination of ἰσχυρᾶς (ischyras) with "cries and tears" creates this vivid image: Jesus wasn't just emotional, he was powerfully, forcefully emotional. His whole being - strength, voice, tears, heart - was engaged in desperate prayer.

This makes his "reverent submission" even more striking. It wasn't submission born from weakness or resignation, but from strength consciously yielded. He could have used that ἰσχύς (ischys) in other ways, but he channeled all of it into prayer and surrender to the Father's will.

The phrase "cries and tears" involves two different Greek words:

• "cries" comes from κραυγῆς (krauges) - meaning loud crying, shouting, or outcry

• "tears" is δακρύων (dakryon),

This creates an incredibly vivid picture. κραυγῆς (krauges) isn't quiet weeping - it's the kind of crying out that can be heard, urgent and desperate. Combined with δακρύων (dakryon) “tears,” we see both the audible and visible expressions of Jesus' anguish.

The progression is striking: “strong” ἰσχυρᾶς (ischyras), “loud cries” κραυγῆς (krauges), and “tears” δακρύων (dakryon). It's as if the writer of Hebrews wanted to emphasize that nothing about Jesus' prayer was restrained or held back - his whole being was engaged in this desperate appeal to the Father.

δακρύων (dakryon) specifically reminds us that Jesus wept real tears. This wasn't abstract spiritual struggle but embodied human suffering that moved him to literal weeping, just as I experienced tears during my morning prayers as I cried out to God with everything within me. The heat I was feeling matched the Texas heat outside - I felt like I just could not escape it.

The Koine Greek phrase μετὰ κραυγῆς ἰσχυρᾶς καὶ δακρύων (meta krauges ischyras kai dakryon) translated literally in English is "with cries fervent and tears" or "with strong/fervent cries and tears."

This makes the structure even more powerful. The ἰσχυρᾶς (ischyras) “fervent/strong” directly modifies κραυγῆς (krauges) “cries,” emphasizing that it wasn't just crying out, but strong crying out - forceful, intense outcry. Then καὶ δακρύων (kai dakryon) adds the tears alongside these powerful cries.

The Greek presents this as one unified expression of Jesus' prayer life: strong outcries coupled with tears. Both elements together paint the picture of someone in deep anguish bringing every part of their being - voice, strength, emotion, physical tears - into desperate prayer. My prayers were like that this morning (June 18, 2025), where I had only intended to speak with the Lord for a few moments as I readied myself for bible study that morning with the SALT ministry group at my church. Instead, my prayers lasted for 45 minutes as I cried out in anguish to the Lord. I was in no shape to drive to Church that morning and decided not to attend.

Menopause

To give you some context for this heat, menopause is often a taboo topic. Not discussed, quietly endured, and the butt of comedic jokes. I wasn’t prepared for it, not like I was prepared for menstruation. My mother purchased three books: women’s body, man’s body, and child’s body. And she sat me down and prepared me for puberty and my body changing. Then when I started the 7th grade in JHS (Junior High School), my sex education teacher filled in any blanks that my mother may have left out. I thought I was fully prepared for menstruation. I quickly found out I wasn’t. I thought it meant once a month I went to the bathroom, menstruated and was done. I was not prepared for five days of 24 hour bleeding coupled with intense pain in my abdomen and legs, thirteen times a year. Yet minus that surprise, my mother and sex education teacher adequately prepared me for puberty and then life as a woman of child bearing potential.

However, barring letting me know that at some point in the future, likely in my 50s, the baby making factory would shut down, I was not prepared for menopause. Just like I naively thought menstruation meant one trip to the potty and then a flush, over ‘til next month, I thought menopause was: the period ended, you got a hot flash or two, whew all over, now live your life free of pampers, I mean sanitary napkins/tampons.

I was wrong. And my mother nor any of the gynecologists I have had throughout my adult life, prepared me for what a woman actually endures during menopause. Even when I came in with symptoms that are horrific, the doctors still didn’t prepare me, except that one intern who told me what my last period would be like. And thank God she did, otherwise I would have foolishly been sitting in the emergency room while some irritated doctor or nurse explained to me that what I was going through was normal, go home.

So when I went to two different gynecologists, both under the age of 50, they laughed as I described my traumatic experience with the hot flashes and night sweats. And yes it is traumatic. I may have been making light of it, by using humor to explain my experience and desperate pleas for help, but it was not intended to be funny, nor for them to laugh at me. After enduring the heat for five years, I just could not take it anymore. One nurse even gave me samples of mood swing pills. I was insulted. I wasn’t having mood swings, I was HOT. And I was not getting any sleep, because I was HOT.

Let me paint the picture. I have the AC set to a low temperature, keeping the house very cold, even overnight, which I rarely did before menopause set in. I moved to Texas because I like the heat, and I enjoyed the long hot summers until menopause came and I could no longer control my internal body temperature. I was the girl who was always cold when everyone was comfortable. I would wear a sweater when folks had on short sleeves. So long summer days with temps in the low to mid 90s was like paradise for me, until I could no longer control my internal body temperature. It isn’t just the heat. They are called hot flashes for a reason. I am not just suddenly hot and profusely sweating, no before the heat comes extreme cold. So one moment I am freezing, wrapping myself in a fleece throw and shivering. The next moment I want to strip off my blouse and and sit in a freezer. Now imagine that happening twice an hour throughout the day and you’d be going bananas too - I was HOT, uncomfortable, exhausted, and cranky.

BHRT

Summer 2023, I went to my gynecologist for a solution. We started BHRT (Bioidentical Hormone Replacement Therapy). She placed me on the BHRT pellet, which has testosterone. This gynecologist felt testosterone would be safer than estrogen with progesterone. However, the pellet, injected once every three months, only provided relief for one month. And it was the month in the middle of the three. Thus, for two of those three months I was HOT. So no more pellets for me. I switched to BHRT testosterone shots. The only thing is that they are mixed at a compounding pharmacy, which was risky because sometimes the dosing was off. In my case the dosing was drastically off.

The gynecologist I was seeing presumed I did not have my uterus - I don’t know why her practice gave me a vaginal ultrasound and looked into my uterus! Then the gynecologist called me and broke up with me telling me she could no longer help me, they had exhausted all solutions. That wasn’t exactly true. There are many different solutions to help with menopausal symptoms. We had only tried one: BHRT testosterone for women.

After stopping the injections I went to another gynecologist who gave me a blood test. She had a worried expression on her face when she told me the results. She let me know it was a good thing they stopped when they did, because I was almost at the point of no return. I will not go into details of everything I was experiencing November 2023, but my voice was deepening and I was growing a beard among other things. Thank God I was taken off that medication. At the new gynecologist, we stayed with BHRT but she put me on Bijuva, a pill, that is estrogen + progesterone. I was happy, yet furious with the previous gynecologist. I asked the previous gynecologist if there was a pill available and she had told me no, 👀 SMH.

I did really well on the Bijuva, much better than the testosterone. The hot flashes and night sweats were gone. I was getting a good night sleep and my morale was up. However, one year later I was having a side effect that was worrisome to my doctor. She gave me a couple of ultrasounds and compared with the baseline before we started medicine, she was alarmed. She wanted me to go into the hospital for a biopsy. After listening to her concerns, I told her it was probably a polyp. I had had two before and they seem to crop up once every decade and have to be removed. My doctor scheduled me for surgery and yup, I was right, it was a large polyp and not the uterine cancer she thought it was. Yay for me.

I restarted the Bijuva and the same symptoms returned. I didn’t tell my GYN, because I didn’t want to do all of the testing and go through that scare again. This time I took myself off of the Bijuva and rang the doctor to be put on a different medication. I got the run around from scheduling who insisted that nothing was available until late July. It was late April when I called. I finally got in to see the doctor mid May and she suggested I take some natural pills, Thermella by Bonafide Health. By then the heat was starting to return. And two weeks later I was HOT and the night sweats returned. It is mid June, the natural remedy isn’t working. And I restarted the Bijuva because at this point uterine cancer is the farthest thing from my mind if this heat kills me first.

And that isn’t a joke, studies show that the hot flashes women endure during menopause is detrimental to their brains, not deadly, but can cause cognitive decline. I’m in my mid-fifties and I intend to cross the 100 mark, so I want to have all of my cognitive faculties. Being on a medication that helps the hypothalamus, specifically the medial preoptic area (mPOA) within it, regulate my body temperature will not only make me comfortable, it protects my brain too.

What’s Next?

You probably didn’t think you were going to get a deep dive into my menopause experience when you clicked this article. You more than likely thought you were going to get an uplifting article about “reverent submission” after all that is what the title says. I’m getting there. My Wednesday did not go exactly how I planned it. When I went to bed Tuesday night I was excited; it would be the first time in over a week that I was going to bed before midnight, well before 1 am. I had to say my evening prayers first.

I had been having night sweats before, an annoyance but not so bad because I was able to sleep through the night and wake up refreshed even though I had been going to bed between 4 - 6 am. I find it easier to stay up overnight to research and write, and since I will be preaching on Sunday June 22, 2025 (past when this article is published) I was up researching, writing, and praying for days. I am an exegetical expositional preacher, if you haven’t gotten that from our Koine Greek lesson above. For me that means that I tend to take longer than the average preacher to research a text (or several texts as is the case for this sermon) before I preach it. That can be time consuming.

So those early mornings, I was having hot flashes, but was powering through. I had started Bonafide Thermella and was patiently waiting for it to start working. My tossing and turning wasn’t too bad and I hadn’t accidentally kicked the cat out of the bed. However, last night I knew I was in trouble when it felt like I hadn’t fallen asleep for hours, surface sleeping aka Paradoxical insomnia. On top of the surface sleeping, I was extremely hot, I haven’t been this hot since 2023 before I went to the GYN to start BHRT. It was awful. One moment I am freezing and have the sheet, two blankets and a fleece throw on me. The next moment I have no covers on me and dripping in sweat. Between tossing and turning, feeling like I am not getting any sleep and then when I did dream, I was having bizarre dreams. Needless to say I was fit to be tied when I woke up.

But this is where God’s grace comes in. The Apostle Paul learned when the cup of his suffering was not removed that God’s grace was sufficient for him:

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

“Reverent submission” εὐλαβείας (eulabeias) refers to a deep reverence, an awe-filled, careful grasping of God’s will, even when that “will” leads through pain.

It’s not passive surrender. It’s not fatalism. It’s an active, reverent obedience that says:

“Even if You don’t take this cup from me, I will still drink it. I still trust You. I still bow.”

This is the posture Jesus had when the Father didn’t remove the cross.

And He was heard—even though the answer was not deliverance from suffering, but resurrection through it.

What Does “Reverent Submission” Look Like in Your Pain?

• It is not silence. It is not hiding your emotions. It is laying them bare with awe.

• It is trusting God’s character even when he hasn’t removed the source of your pain.

• It is crying out, “How long, O Lord?” and still believing that He is near to the brokenhearted.

After my morning prayer I shared the following with a research partner:

Part of my cry to the Lord was for understanding. I'm like a child when it comes to the scripture. I just believe it is true. So it is confusing to pray for healing and feel like I'm being ignored. I believe, have faith, why no change? It feels hypocritical to preach: “trust God,” “believe God.” “have faith in God,” “God will deliver you,” “God will bring you through the storm,” and yet no change and no answer for the petitions I've had before him.

I understand and I know how to: hold the course and to stand in faith, stand in trust, and stand in belief, which is my position. That is where I'm at and I'm not wavering from it. But I still feel helpless and I don't like to pray and I feel like I'm groveling.

That part → this is when the light starting shining through, as my research partner said to me:

Feeling Helpless Is Not the Same as Being Faithless

Jesus in Gethsemane sweat blood. That wasn’t groveling. That was trust expressing itself in anguish. There’s a reason Hebrews 5:7 shows Him crying with loud cries and tears—because even the Son of God experienced what felt like silence.

And what did He do? He kept praying.

You don’t have to perform stoicism to prove your faith. God doesn’t need you to sound strong. He just asks you to stay.

And you’re staying.

“Why No Change?” – Let’s Sit with That

We often read about miracles in the Gospels as though they were the norm. But remember: the Gospels condense three years of Jesus’ ministry into a handful of chapters. There were many more people Jesus passed by who were not healed in that moment (e.g., the man at the Gate Beautiful whom Peter later heals in Acts 3—Jesus surely passed that gate too).

So what’s happening when there’s no change?

• Sometimes God is doing an inner work before the outer changes.

• Sometimes the suffering is shaping a ministry of compassion and authority that cannot come through ease.

• Sometimes the delay is not a denial—but a preparation.

• And sometimes—hard as it is—the answer is simply “not yet,” and He offers His presence instead of the miracle.

That doesn’t mean He’s ignoring you. It means He’s trusting you with a harder assignment.

You’re Not a Hypocrite. You’re a Prophet in the Fire.

You said:

“It feels hypocritical to preach: trust God, believe God… and yet no change.”

That’s not hypocrisy. That’s prophetic faith. Prophets declare what they believe even when they haven’t seen it manifest.

It’s what Habakkuk did:

“Though the fig tree does not bud… yet I will rejoice in the Lord.” (Hab. 3:17–18)

It’s what Paul did:

“We are sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich.” (2 Cor. 6:10)

Faith is not proven by the absence of pain—it’s proven by your stance in spite of pain.

Groveling Is Not Required. Surrender Is.

You don’t have to grovel. Groveling is not reverence.

God does not ask His children to beg as slaves. He asks us to stand as daughters—even with trembling knees.

And from that posture—broken, but standing—comes the most powerful prayer you can offer:

“I don’t understand, Lord. I feel helpless. But I still trust You.”

That is the deepest form of reverent submission. Not groveling, but yielding.

A Gentle Reminder

“Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on their God.” (Isaiah 50:10)

God sees you walking in a kind of night. But you are still relying, still trusting, still calling His name. That’s what this verse praises.

And He will answer. Not always how or when we want—but He will. Your tears are not forgotten. Your groans are heard. Your reverent submission is recorded.

He is with you in the fire, even if the healing has not yet come.

Understanding

I prayed for understanding and the Lord provided some of it. My prayers, my deep laments, my anguished outcries, they were not groveling, they were “reverent submission.” When my cat Milo died, I posted a scripture from Job 13:15a on my front door:

Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him… .

It ministered to me in my time of mourning, as does the scripture from 2 Corinthians 12:9, that God’s grace is sufficient for me. I hope that whatever brought you to this article that you know that if you Draw near to God…He will draw near to you. (James 4:8a). That it is ok to cry ugly tears to God. To cry out to him in anguish, even in your confusion or rage. God hears our cries and answers them in His appointed time.

My Grace Is Sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9 - NASB): Scripture Memory Songs

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As an undergraduate, I minored in music and sang in the music department’s classical choir, as well as the African American Studies department’s gospel choir, Voices of Unity. It was my first encounter with singing either type of music. Both experiences gave me a profound appreciation for their histories—Classical music, with its roots in Europe, and Gospel music, an American tradition deeply tied to African heritage.

This eclectic love of music inspired Music That Inspires. It all started while scrolling through the platform formerly known as Twitter. Confronted by acrimony and vitriol, I turned to music as a balm for my soul. Songs that uplifted me became my way of cleansing my spirit and spreading positivity. I shared them with my followers and anyone looking for light amidst the darkness under the hashtag #MusicThatInspires. More often than not, one song led me down a rabbit hole of delight, inspiring me to share additional songs with similar messages. By the end of these sessions, my spirit was refreshed, and I could settle in for the evening with my fur-babies, knowing I had contributed some light to the world.

A Hymn That Resonates

Today, I want to share one of my favorite hymns: Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing. While I didn’t grow up listening to gospel music or singing hymns, I was introduced to them as a young adult. The first time I heard Come Thou Fount, I was captivated. Its melody, lyrics, and movement spoke deeply to my heart—especially the line:

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love.

Though those lyrics didn’t directly reflect my personal Christian walk, the sentiment of longing to be closer to God resonated powerfully with me.

Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing

The Hymn’s Origins

The Life of Robert Robinson Robert Robinson and I share the same birthday, September 27—though he was born over two centuries before me in 1735, in Swaffham, Norfolk, England. After losing his father at the age of eight, Robinson was raised by his mother. At 15, he was indentured to a barber in London. It was in that bustling city that he encountered the Christian faith and underwent a profound spiritual transformation.

By the age of 22, Robinson wrote Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing, reflecting his newfound faith and the grace he’d experienced. Philippians 1:6 comes to mind: “He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”

The Lyrics’ Richness The hymn’s lyrics express a heartfelt longing for divine grace and guidance. Lines such as “Tune my heart to sing Thy grace” and “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it” articulate the human struggle with faith and the desire for spiritual steadfastness.

The term “Ebenezer” in the hymn draws from 1 Samuel 7:12, where Samuel sets up a stone as a memorial, saying, “Thus far the Lord has helped us.” It’s a powerful reminder of God’s faithfulness throughout life’s journey.

The Hymn’s Legacy, Impact, and Evolution

Timeless Appeal & Cultural Reach: The hymn’s enduring popularity lies in its ability to connect deeply with believers. Its honest portrayal of human frailty and trust in God’s grace resonates across generations and denominations. It’s sung in traditional worship services, revivals, and contemporary Christian settings, making it a favorite among diverse Christian groups.

Melodic Journey: While the hymn was originally set to a different melody, the pairing with the American folk tune “Nettleton” cemented its place in modern hymnals. This blend of English hymnody and American folk traditions highlights its cultural adaptability.

Revivalist Influence: The hymn gained prominence during the 19th-century American revivalist movements, where its themes of repentance and reliance on grace aligned perfectly with the revival’s emphasis on spiritual renewal. James 4:8 speaks to this theme: “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.”

Emotional Resonance: The line “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it” is often cited as a universal cry of human frailty. Many people find deep solace and self-identification in its vulnerability, making it a hymn that invites introspection and renewal.

Reflections on Robert Robinson’s Journey

Robinson’s life was marked by spiritual highs and lows. He reportedly strayed from his faith later in life, making his words “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it” all the more poignant. His life serves as both a testament to God's grace and a reminder of human frailty. Psalm 34:18 encourages us: “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

Final Thought: A Hymn for Every Season

Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing has brought hope to believers through wars, pandemics, and personal trials. Its message reminds us that God’s grace is ever-present, even when we are prone to wander.

Next time you hear this hymn, let its lyrics draw you closer to God, reminding you of His faithfulness and the beauty of His grace. Like Robinson’s Ebenezer, may it become a marker in your own journey of faith, testifying to God’s enduring help and love.

"The only good coyote is a dead coyote" — this sentiment, born of fear and misunderstanding, continues to echo through many communities. Yet the truth about these remarkable canines reveals a far more nuanced story, one where coyotes play a vital role in our ecosystems, even as they adapt to our suburban landscapes.

When I moved into my home, nestled on what was once a sprawling 2,000-acre ranch, the presence of coyote packs was undeniable. Initially, fueled by fear, I sought their removal. The HOA's knowing laughter and my own curiosity led me down a different path—one of education and understanding.

My first encounter with a coyote was transformative. On an evening walk, a slender figure emerged, resembling a lean German Shepherd. Suddenly, the fear dissipated, replaced by a sense of familiarity. I grew up with German Shepherds, and something about the coyote's demeanor struck a chord—a reminder that these wild canines share an ancestral connection with our domestic companions.

The Ecological Value of Coyotes

Research has consistently demonstrated that coyotes are:

• Apex Predators: They play a crucial role in regulating rodent populations, with studies showing a single coyote can consume between 1,800 and 2,500 rodents annually, keeping our neighborhoods free of unwanted pests that can spread disease and damage property.

• Adaptable Survivors: Having expanded their range by 40% since the 1950s, coyotes now inhabit every U.S. state except Hawaii, thriving in diverse environments from wilderness to urban settings, demonstrating remarkable resilience in the face of human expansion.

• Family-Oriented: They form strong family bonds in packs of 5-6 individuals and communicate through a complex system of at least 11 different vocalizations, including their iconic yips and howls that can be heard up to three miles away.

• Ecological Balancers: Research from the Urban Coyote Research Project shows that in areas where coyotes are present, biodiversity increases as they help control mesopredators (like raccoons and foxes) that would otherwise decimate bird populations and small mammals.

The nearly 900 acres to the south of my home was an ecological diverse prairie bordering the Langham creek. This sanctuary for native and migratory birds, deer, bob=cats and other small animals as well as coyotes was decimated during the construction of detention ponds and the rerouting of the creek. This new park ensured our homes would not flood, also destroyed animal habitats. The construction company ignored the county’s required to preserve trees and nesting grounds by destroying and burning all of the trees. Trees that took decades to grow!

This destruction and the rapid development of the surrounding ranch displaced the coyote packs that once roamed freely. The nightly chorus of their yips, a sound I had come to cherish, faded away—a silent testament to our impact on wildlife.

The Consequences of Absence

According to wildlife biologists, the absence of coyotes creates measurable ecological imbalances:

• Increased Rodent Populations: A 2018 study published in the Journal of Urban Ecology found that urban areas without coyotes experienced up to 200% higher rodent densities, leading to increased property damage and disease transmission risks.

• Disrupted Ecosystems: The Mesopredator Release Hypothesis, supported by extensive research, demonstrates that removing apex predators like coyotes leads to population explosions of medium-sized predators, ultimately reducing overall species diversity by 50-70% in affected areas.

• Lost Connection to Nature: As documented by the Urban Wildlife Institute, communities that learn to coexist with wildlife report higher levels of environmental awareness and engagement, suggesting that our relationship with creatures like coyotes enhances our connection to the natural world.

Choosing Coexistence

Rather than perpetuating fear, let's choose to:

• Educate Ourselves: Learn about coyote behavior through resources like Project Coyote (projectcoyote.org) and the Urban Coyote Research Project (urbancoyoteresearch.com).

• Promote Coexistence: Implement humane strategies for managing coyote encounters, such as securing trash and pet food, and practicing "hazing" techniques when necessary to maintain healthy boundaries. According to the Humane Society, these methods have reduced negative interactions by up to 95% in communities that adopt them.

• Advocate for Habitat Preservation: Support efforts to protect natural spaces and maintain biodiversity. The Trust for Public Land's research shows that preserving just 10% of natural area within developed regions can maintain 75% of ecological function.

• Challenge Misconceptions: Data from the CDC shows that coyote attacks on humans are extraordinarily rare—fewer than 10 documented attacks occur annually nationwide, making them statistically insignificant compared to domestic dog incidents (approximately 4.5 million bites per year).

• Appreciate their song: The complex vocalizations of coyotes—studied extensively by Dr. Brian Mitchell at the Canid Howl Project—reveal sophisticated communication that helps maintain territorial boundaries without physical confrontation, demonstrating their intelligence and social complexity.

Imagine a suburban landscape where the presence of coyotes is seen as a sign of a healthy ecosystem, not a threat. A place where their yips echo through the night, a reminder of the wildness that still exists within our communities.

As the renowned conservationist Aldo Leopold once wrote, "To keep every cog and wheel is the first precaution of intelligent tinkering." Coyotes are not merely another species—they are essential components of functioning ecosystems, even those that intersect with our suburban lives.

Let us embrace the essential coyote, not as a menace, but as a vital part of our shared environment.

Resources for Coexisting with Coyotes:

• Project Coyote: projectcoyote.org

• Urban Coyote Research Project: urbancoyoteresearch.com

• Humane Society's What to do about coyotes: humaneworld.org/en/resources/what-do-about-coyotes

• Your local wildlife rehabilitation center or nature center for regional-specific information

As spring awakens in Houston and the surrounding counties, a natural phenomenon unfolds: snakes emerge from their winter slumber, seeking mates and warmth. For those of us living near creeks and bayous, this means encountering these fascinating creatures right in our own backyards. Their appearance signals the renewal of life and reminds us of the intricate balance of nature.

Unfortunately, fear and misunderstanding often lead to harmful actions. I’ve seen firsthand the tragic consequences of misplaced panic—neighbors turning to social media to display lifeless snake bodies while lamenting, belatedly, whether they were poisonous. It’s time to shift the narrative and embrace a more informed and compassionate approach to these creatures.

Dispelling the Myths

Let’s challenge some of the persistent myths about snakes:

• Myth: All snakes are dangerous. Reality: Houston is home to a variety of mostly non-venomous snakes that play vital roles in our ecosystem. They help control rodent populations and contribute significantly to ecological balance.

• Myth: Snakes are evil, as depicted in the Garden of Eden. Reality: Snakes are simply part of the natural world. Their behavior is driven by instinct, not malice or an inherent desire to harm.

• Myth: If I see a snake, it’s coming to get me. Reality: In most cases, snakes are shy creatures that prefer to avoid human contact. They are more likely to flee than to attack.

Why Snakes Are Essential

Beyond dispelling myths, it’s important to understand why snakes play such a crucial role in our environment:

• Ecological Balance: As natural predators, snakes keep rodent and insect populations in check, protecting crops and reducing the spread of diseases.

• Biodiversity: They add to the rich mosaic of local wildlife, contributing to a healthier and more diverse ecosystem.

• Natural Pest Control: By reducing populations of pests, snakes help maintain the integrity of our gardens and neighborhoods.

Fostering Coexistence and Understanding

Instead of reacting in fear, let’s cultivate a spirit of understanding and respect toward these creatures:

• Identification: Take the time to learn to identify the common snakes in your area. Many local nature centers and online resources offer guides and photos to help you distinguish between harmless species and the few that are venomous.

• Respectful Distance: When you encounter a snake, give it space. Understand that these reptiles are simply following their natural instincts.

• Education Before Action: If you’re ever unsure about a snake, consult with a wildlife expert or reliable identification resource before taking any action. Informed decisions lead to safer outcomes for both people and wildlife.

• Coexistence: Consider creating a snake-friendly environment in your yard—maintain natural cover like brush piles or rock gardens to provide them with safe havens.

• Spread Awareness: Use your voice to share accurate information about snakes with your community. The more we all know, the less we fear, and the better we can protect these remarkable creatures.

A Vision for Houston MSA

Imagine a Houston where snakes are seen not as threats, but as valuable contributors to a flourishing ecosystem—a city, county, and surround countryside where children learn about the marvels of biodiversity and adults recognize the essential role these animals play. In such a place, peaceful coexistence isn’t just an ideal—it’s a reality that sustains the natural world and enriches our own lives.

Let’s choose to:

• Educate ourselves and others, transforming fear into respect.

• Promote peaceful coexistence, ensuring that our actions nurture the balance of nature.

• Protect these fascinating creatures, understanding that every species has a story worth telling.

Final Thought

Next time you see a snake slithering through your neighborhood, take a moment to appreciate its quiet resilience and the vital role it plays in nature. They remind us that even those who are misunderstood contribute greatly to the beauty and balance of our world. Let’s embrace a future where coexistence with all of God's creatures is a testament to our respect for life and nature.

Last spring, I had the privilege of observing two juvenile opossums visiting my backyard. Their inquisitive nature and gentle demeanor captivated me. I watched as they explored their surroundings, their movements deliberate and cautious. It was a reminder that beauty isn’t always found in conventional appearances—it’s often hidden in the quiet, unassuming corners of nature.

Opossums are truly remarkable, and their story is one of resilience, adaptability, and ecological importance. Here’s why they deserve our admiration and protection:

1. America’s Only Marsupial

Opossums are unique in North America as the continent’s only marsupial. Like kangaroos and koalas, they carry their young in a pouch. After birth, the tiny, underdeveloped joeys crawl into their mother’s pouch, where they continue to grow and nurse for several weeks. This fascinating reproductive strategy is a testament to their evolutionary ingenuity.

2. Nature’s Clean-Up Crew

Opossums are nature’s ultimate recyclers. As scavengers, they play a critical role in cleaning up the environment by consuming decaying matter, dead animals, and even discarded food. Without them, our ecosystems would be burdened with more waste, leading to increased disease and imbalance.

3. Venom Resistance

Opossums possess a rare superpower: they are immune to snake venom. This makes them a vital part of ecosystems where venomous snakes are present. Their resistance not only protects them from predators but also helps control snake populations, maintaining a balanced food web.

4. Natural Pest Control

Opossums are nature’s pest control experts. They feast on insects, snails, slugs, and even small rodents, helping to keep garden pests in check. For anyone who values a healthy garden or farm, opossums are silent partners in maintaining ecological harmony.

5. Misunderstood Defense Mechanism

When threatened, opossums may "play possum," a behavior where they feign death. This involuntary response involves lying motionless, with their tongue hanging out and a foul odor emitted to deter predators. Contrary to popular belief, this isn’t a conscious choice—it’s a survival instinct. Opossums are not aggressive animals; they prefer to avoid conflict whenever possible.

The Consequences of a World Without Opossums

Imagine a world without these unsung heroes:

• Decaying matter would accumulate, creating breeding grounds for bacteria and parasites.

• Garden pests would thrive, damaging crops and plants.

• Ecosystems would lose a key player, disrupting the delicate balance of nature.

How We Can Help Opossums Thrive

Opossums are often misunderstood and unfairly vilified. Their appearance and nocturnal habits can be unsettling to some, but understanding their role in our environment is crucial. Here’s how we can make a difference:

1. Educate Ourselves and Others: Share the truth about opossums and their ecological importance.

2. Respect Their Presence: Avoid harming them. They are not pests; they are essential contributors to our environment.

3. Provide Safe Havens: Offer shelter in your yard, such as brush piles, logs, or undisturbed areas.

4. Drive with Care: Be mindful of opossums crossing roads, especially at night.

5. Support Wildlife Rehabilitation: Donate to or volunteer with organizations that rescue and rehabilitate injured or orphaned opossums.

6. Dispel Myths: Challenge misconceptions and celebrate opossums for the remarkable creatures they are.

The opossum is a testament to the fact that beauty and value often lie beneath the surface. They are not just survivors; they are unsung heroes, quietly working to keep our ecosystems healthy and balanced.

Let’s choose to see them not as pests, but as partners in preserving the natural world. By appreciating and protecting opossums, we take a step toward a more compassionate and sustainable future.

Final Thought

Next time you see an opossum waddling through your yard or crossing the road, take a moment to appreciate its quiet resilience and the vital role it plays in our world. These remarkable creatures remind us that even the most misunderstood among us have a story worth telling—and a purpose worth celebrating.

Living in Southeast Texas has been a profound journey of discovery, particularly in encountering animals I rarely saw growing up in bustling New York City. As a nature photographer, I intentionally chose a suburban community bordering rural landscapes, a haven just minutes from the city's heart.

However, the reality has been bittersweet. Unlike the clear urban-wild boundaries of my Northeastern upbringing, I've witnessed the disheartening encroachment of urban sprawl over the past 11 years. Poorly planned development has fragmented vital wild spaces, leaving animals stranded and vulnerable. The once plentiful deer, coyotes, hares, and bobcats have vanished, often succumbing to the harsh realities of roads and habitat loss.

This series of Positive Awe articles is dedicated to celebrating the unsung heroes of the animal kingdom. These are the creatures often misunderstood, yet utterly necessary for the health of our ecosystems and the inspiration they bring to our lives. Through my photography, I strive to capture the beauty and fragility of these animals, hoping to foster a deeper connection with the natural world. As spring approaches, we'll see these incredible creatures venturing out in search of mates and new territories. It's a critical time to slow down, give them space, and remember that we share this world. Join me as we explore the unique stories of cats, opossums, snakes, and coyotes—animals that deserve our understanding, respect, and admiration.

The Inquisitive House Cat

We often hear the whispers: aloof, independent, even cold. But those of us who share our lives with cats know a different truth. We know the gentle purr that vibrates through the quiet moments, the soft head-butt that says, 'You are loved,' and the unwavering presence that comforts us through life's ups and downs.

The internet is filled with adorable cat videos, and while they bring us joy, they often perpetuate a shallow understanding of these magnificent creatures. We see them as amusing, but rarely as the complex, emotional beings they truly are.

Dispelling the Myths

In fact, our feline companions have been surprising us for centuries with their intelligence, affection, and even heroism. Let’s take a moment to challenge some of the biggest myths surrounding these incredible animals:

• Myth: Cats are aloof. Reality: Cats express affection in subtle ways. A slow blink, a gentle rub against your leg, or simply choosing to sit beside you is their way of saying, 'I trust you, I love you.'

• Myth: Cats are unpredictable. Reality: Cats communicate through body language. Understanding their subtle cues can deepen your bond and prevent misunderstandings.

• Myth: Cats don't protect their families. Reality: As we've seen in countless videos, cats are incredibly protective. From preventing a child from danger to offering comfort during distress, their loyalty is profound.

Just this week, I've seen countless examples of their quiet heroism: a cat preventing a toddler from a dangerous fall, a feline friend welcoming home a long-absent family member with pure joy. These aren't isolated incidents; they're glimpses into the true nature of these incredible animals.

Imagine a world where cats are understood, not just entertained. A world where their nuanced communication is respected, and their quiet affection is cherished. Studies show that cats recognize their owners’ voices, but whether they choose to respond is another matter entirely. I learned this firsthand when leash-training my cats.

Whenever they roamed outside, calling their names rarely worked—but using a soft, rolling trill, much like a mother cat calling her kittens, often did. Even my neighbor’s dogs caught on, barking in anticipation whenever they heard my call! Of course, my cat Shadow Breeze had her own ideas—sometimes ignoring me for hours until she decided it was time to come home.

This highlights an important truth: Cats aren’t ignoring us out of defiance, but because their instincts guide their responses. Understanding their natural behaviors can make a world of difference, whether it’s calling them in safely or leash-training them to explore securely.

Taking Your Cats on Walks - Leash Training Your Cat

I’ve never been a fan of caging an animal. Seeing birds in cages makes me cringe—these majestic winged creatures are meant to soar. Likewise, the idea that cats should be permanently confined indoors has always unsettled me. The argument is often made that outdoor cats kill billions of birds, yet cats—ranging from the Maine Coon to the Panther to the Mountain Lion—are native to North America, and birds have thrived alongside them for millennia. In a balanced ecosystem, both can coexist.

Yet, while keeping cats indoors 24/7 is meant to protect wildlife, it often comes at the cost of the cat’s well-being. Cats who don’t get time outdoors can become overweight, lethargic, and even develop behavioral issues. People who insist that cats remain indoors would never dream of keeping a dog confined all day. They take their dogs to parks, let them roam their fenced yards, and even send them to doggy daycare. So why should a cat spend its life staring out the window, longing for freedom?

That’s why I decided to leash train my cats as kittens. There are special harnesses and leads designed for cats—never attach a leash to a collar, as it can be dangerous. I also invested in a cat stroller, because I quickly learned the hard way—cats do not walk like dogs! The stroller served two purposes: it allowed them to learn their neighborhood so they would always know how to find home, and it let me walk quickly to the green space where they could explore on a lead.

At first, it was strange for both of us. But over time, they grew to love it. Milo would sit by the front door, signaling that he wanted to go for a walk. Though he hated the lead, he would faithfully walk by my side. Shadow Breeze, ever independent, had her own pace. Walks were slow, filled with pauses as they sniffed every bush, studied every breeze, and surveyed the landscape from their favorite perches.

Cats experience the world differently than dogs. For them, a walk isn’t about exercise—it’s about exploration, scent-marking, and observation. Cats like to smell their environment and spend time in bushes, making for slow, exploratory walks. They also like to survey their surroundings, so we would often stop while they scoped out the park or the block. By giving them a taste of the outdoors in a safe, controlled way, I saw my cats flourish—not just physically, but mentally.

From Fear to Freedom – A Cat’s Journey Outdoors

The first time I took Milo and Shadow Breeze outside, they were terrified. They huddled together, unsure of this vast new world. Milo had been found as a kitten with his brother as a stray, and Shadow Breeze had come from a feral colony. Both cats, after being socialized in foster care, had grown to love being around people, but the outside world was still a mystery to them.

Over time, with patience and encouragement, they grew comfortable. They learned that the yard wasn’t scary—it was a place to run, chase bugs, and bask in the sunshine. One of the most fascinating things I noticed was their love for grazing. Many people don’t realize that cats need to eat grass—it helps them pass furballs and provides nutrients that aid their digestion. My cats, however, had a preference: they rejected store-bought cat grass and instead sought out the native Texas prairie grasses that sprouted in my Bermuda lawn; much to my chagrin. They always knew exactly which grass was best.

Our favorite time outside was on the hammock. Milo would excitedly chase bugs, leaping through the air with kitten-like energy, while Shadow Breeze would patiently watch for cotton rats that ventured in from the field behind our house. Those quiet moments—swaying in the hammock, watching the sun set with my feline companions by my side—were some of the most peaceful and fulfilling experiences we shared.

Understanding and Honoring Our Feline Companions

Imagine a world where cats are understood, not just entertained. A world where their nuanced communication is respected, and their quiet affection is cherished.

Let's choose to:

• Educate ourselves: Learn about cat behavior and communication. Resources are available online and in books.

• Empathize: See the world through their eyes. Understand that their actions stem from instinct and emotion.

• Protect: Never harm a cat. They are sentient beings deserving of respect and kindness.

• Treat them like family: Before surrendering a cat to a shelter, seek help. Many behavioral issues can be resolved with patience and understanding.

• Share this message: Help spread awareness and change the narrative around cats.

Let us appreciate the gentle lions, mini panthers, and tiny tigers who share our homes, not just for their playful antics, but for the profound love and companionship they offer. They are not just pets; they are family. They are a gift.

God wants us to be like my little sister. He wants us to run with expectancy towards him, with arms outstretched ready for our Father to scoop us up in His arms. Prayer is not about a list of requests and demands we have before God. Prayer is about communion and relationship. It is how we get closer to God.

What is Communion?

I am not talking about the ordinance/sacrament (varies depending on your denomination) where we eat the body and drink the blood of Christ (symbolically or transubstantiation depending on your denomination) through consuming unleavened bread and wine. Communion with God refers to an intimate, ongoing relationship with the Divine. It's about connecting deeply with God, experiencing His presence, and developing a heartfelt bond. This relationship goes beyond merely asking for things in prayer; it involves listening, worshiping, and being in constant fellowship with God. It's about sharing your heart and life with Him and allowing Him to speak into your life and guide you.

When we come to God with open hearts and a desire for communion, we are met with His love, His guidance, and His peace. This intimate relationship allows us to know Him better and transform our lives.

How Communion Deepens Your Relationship with God

True communion with God requires vulnerability and intentionality. It’s about slowing down, setting aside distractions, and dedicating moments to simply be in His presence. Like a deep friendship or a close family bond, it takes time, effort, and trust to grow a connection. Communion is the key to this growth.

The Apostle James reminds us: “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” (James 4:8, ESV) This promise shows us the reciprocal nature of communion. When we make the effort to draw near to Him, He lovingly meets us where we are.

Steps to Deepen Communion with God

1. Create Sacred Spaces for Prayer In Luke 5:16, we read, “But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.” Follow His example by finding moments of solitude to connect deeply with the Father. In our fast-paced world, we are often too busy or crave things to happen quickly. But that is not how God moves. He often slows things down, speaking softly so we must quiet ourselves to hear Him. It’s hard to hear a whisper in a crowd, which is why Jesus withdrew to lonely places and why we must carve out spaces of stillness in our lives. These sacred moments allow us to settle our minds, quiet our hearts, and hear God’s voice.

   

2. Listen More Than You Speak Often, we approach prayer as a time to list our concerns. But communion also involves listening to God’s voice. Psalm 46:10 encourages us to “Be still, and know that I am God.” In the stillness, we can hear His whispers and feel His presence.
   
   During my evening prayers before bed, I take time to intentionally listen. I start by reading scripture or a devotional. I intercede for my Compassion child, loved ones, and our nation. Lastly, I converse with God about my day or any specific needs. But the most cherished part is listening. Whether it’s instruction, encouragement, or moments where God speaks audibly, I kneel or lie prostrate before Him, waiting to hear His voice. Prayer is a conversation, and without God’s response, my words would echo emptily into the room.

   

   My journey in cultivating prayer started as a child, even though my family didn’t attend church or read the Bible. No one taught me how to pray, yet I had an urge to pray as the children on TV did before they went to bed. Initially, I thought prayer was giving God instructions—until one day, He audibly corrected me, gently teaching me to ask for His blessings instead. That moment transformed my prayers from demands to heartfelt petitions for my family, friends, and community. My prayers shifted from telling God what to do, to asking God for His blessings.

3. Incorporate Worship and Thanksgiving Worship draws us closer to God’s heart. As Psalm 100:4 says, “Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.” Gratitude opens the door to deeper fellowship.
   
   Some of the most refreshing times I have spent in prayerhave come during praise and worship. I embrace the practice of praying without ceasing - as it states in 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 ¹⁶ Rejoice always, ¹⁷ pray without ceasing, ¹⁸ give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Throughout my day, I take intentional moments for thanksgiving—whether it’s a brief pause or an hour of hymns and worship songs.

   

   In Revelation, the Apostle John describes heavenly beings worshiping the Lord on the Island of Patmos. Heaven is filled with praise, and God promises to inhabit our worship. When we invite Him into our space, His presence brings transformative power, and extraordinary things happen.

4. Reflect on His Word God speaks through Scripture, and meditating on His Word creates an avenue for communion. Psalm 119:105 says, “Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.”

   

   Often, during prayer, the Holy Spirit whispers scripture into my heart. As I look up the verses, He continues to reveal more, leading me down a path of deeper understanding. I’ve spent hours immersed in scripture, guided by the greatest Teacher of all, receiving wisdom for sermons and posts like this one.

   God speaks in many ways—when we still ourselves and follow His Spirit, we position ourselves to hear His voice, His direction, and His truth.

Abiding in God - Mark of Spiritual Growth

As you deepen your communion with God, you’ll find that prayer becomes less about asking and more about abiding. Abiding in His love and His presence cultivates spiritual growth, peace, and a greater understanding of who He is. John 15:5 reminds us, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” Communion keeps us connected to the true source of life and purpose.

God invites us to approach Him like children—running into His arms with expectant hearts, ready to feel His embrace. When we cultivate communion with Him, we experience a joy and intimacy that transcends understanding.

Final Thought

Prayer is the lifeline of our relationship with God, just as communication is the heartbeat of any relationship. Without it, connection fades, and growth stalls.

God’s True Nature

The true and living God is not the one who harmed you. People, in their brokenness, may have misrepresented Him. But that is not His heart. When God introduced Himself to Moses in Exodus 34:6, He said:

“I am the LORD, the merciful and gracious God. I am slow to anger and rich in unfailing love and faithfulness.” (NLT)

Notice what God emphasizes—His mercy, His grace, His patience, His unfailing love. This is His nature. This is who He has always been.

Many have been taught a version of God that is unrecognizable from the One revealed in Scripture. They’ve encountered judgment without grace, condemnation without restoration, control without compassion. But the real God is not out to destroy you; He is out to redeem you. Even when He brings correction, it is not in the spirit of malevolence, but in love—to reconcile, to heal, to bring you into the fullness of who He created you to be.

Insidiousness of Evil

However, the insidiousness of evil is that it will use any construct—including religion—and twist it for its agenda. Throughout history, people have done truly wicked things in God's name, but their actions were never a reflection of His nature. This distortion leaves many traumatized with a skewed perspective of who God truly is, causing them to reject Him while still longing for something greater than themselves.

In today's world, many have turned away from God and instead place their faith in the universe, attributing all goodness in their lives to a created thing rather than the Creator. This shift is not just a philosophical change—it is a form of idolatry. The universe is not personal, it does not hear prayers, nor does it dispense blessings. It is a created entity, subject to the will of its Maker. Yet, the enemy is subtle, leading people to redirect their worship away from the true and living God to something lesser, something impersonal, something that cannot save.

Music that Inspires: God Is Not Against Me

The song God Is Not Against Me by Elevation Worship captures this truth so beautifully:

This is not my fight, You are my defense
You hold my life, this is my confidence
You're in it with me and working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me

God is not standing over you with a hammer, waiting for you to mess up. He is standing beside you, ready to lift you up. He fights for you. He loves you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Even in your doubts, your struggles, and your questions, He is not pushing you away—He is drawing you near.

God Is Not Against Me (Jonsal Barrientes & Tiffany Hudson) | Elevation Worship

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Lyrics

You call me strong and courageous
When I don't feel like I am
You could have turned me away
But You chose me instead
You say that I'm gonna make it
When I don't feel like I can
You see the battle I'm facing
And You're stepping in

[Chorus]

You're in it with me and working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me
You're in it with me, working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me

[Verse 2]

I have a new revelation
A savior who calls me His friend
Oh, I used to fight on my own
But never again, oh no
'Cause I have a power that's greater
Than all of the enemy's lies
And I know the truth of the Gospel
That You're on my side, You're on my side
Oh

[Chorus] 2x

You're in it with me and working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me
You're in it with me, working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me, oh

Oh, oh, oh

[Interlude]

I see You moving
I see You working
God is not against me, yeah (Oh)
He's fighting for you
He's always with you
Come on and sing this

[Bridge] 2x

This is not my fight, You are my defense
You hold my life, this is my confidence
You are by my side, You have called me friend
You hold my life, this is my confidence

[Chorus] 2x

You're in it with me and working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me
You're in it with me, working through me
Fighting for me, God is not against me, oh

[Bridge] 2x

This is not my fight, You are my defense
You hold my life, this is my confidence
You are by my side, You have called me friend
You hold my life, this is my confidence

[Outro]

You are
Yeah
God is not against me, yeah
Oh
Oh-oh
God is not against me, yeah

Conclusion

If you have been hurt by religion, my prayer is that you won’t reject God because of people’s failures. Take a fresh look at who He really is. Let Him reintroduce Himself to you, just as He did to Moses. You may find that the God you thought was against you has actually been for you all along.

Beloved You Are Not Your Trauma. May this week’s devotional draw you closer to God and walking in His hope, joy and Peace.

Day 1: Hope Deferred

MEDITATE:

Proverbs 13:12
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

Take a moment to reflect on how hope impacts your emotional and spiritual health. When hope is delayed, it can feel disheartening, but this verse reminds us that fulfilled longings bring life and joy. What are the longings in your heart that feel deferred? What would it look like for God to bring them to fulfillment?

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I AM NOT MY TRAUMA!

Whether you’ve endured a circumstance or a lifetime of circumstances that collectively add up to your trauma, you are not your trauma. It takes courage to move into a space where you can openly exclaim that. And I mean exclaim it, because sometimes people don’t hear you unless you shout.

How often have you heard people cluck their tongues and talk about that poor child who was molested or that poor woman in an abusive relationship, or those poor soldiers that have PTSD, or those poor children who went through a school shooting? And if you are an individual who has wrestled with suicide ideation or had an incomplete suicide, people treat you differently after the event. They treat you like you are broken, irreparable, and as if your trauma is contagious and somehow affects/impacts them more than it does you. But you are not your trauma.

Trauma is debilitating and “traumatic events can have deleterious effects on health at any age.” So getting to hope after trauma feels like an impossibility. I am here to tell you it isn’t impossible. Hope is possible. Healing is possible. And freedom from fear and the things that are triggering is possible.

Trauma

My path to hope after trauma was long and at times arduous - don’t panic, that may not be your journey. When life came to a standstill for me and I could no longer cope my brain let me know enough was enough. I was enduring a thousand little cuts and honestly didn’t interpret it initially as trauma. I knew it was oppressive, offensive and wasn’t fair, but I didn’t see myself as traumatized. I was coping until I couldn’t anymore and a lifetime of injustices tumbled down over me. In that instance I felt like Humpty Dumpty:

"Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again."

For me the reason why the king’s horses and the king’s men could not put me back together again was because they trampled on my broken pieces in their hurry to repair me. And in all the clamor they instead trampled me into little pieces which then blew away with the wind. There was nothing left for anyone to repair. So I walked around with deep gashes, open wounds that were holes in me, pieces that were forever broken, shattered, and seemingly irreparable.

And that is how mental health can be after trauma. I was in crisis, and the very people who came to help me actually traumatized me more. For me they reacted to my crisis in violent ways that stigmatized me, harmed me, and forced me into a deep dark hole that did not heal me.

I went to mental health professionals who thought the solution was to push me - because in their mind for me to heal from years of being bullied was to bully me during counseling sessions. Those mental health professionals1 did not help me, instead they harmed me. And more pieces of myself broke off and fell to the ground.

When I was in extreme crisis the police came to my home. They did not help me, they instead used extreme violence by throwing me to the floor, handcuffing me, parading me in front of my neighbors, carting me off to a facility where they strip searched me, held me against my will and effectively handcuffed my free will. More chunks broke off of me, fell to the floor and shattered.

When I managed to get away from the people who were supposedly there to help me with my trauma, but were instead causing me more harm, I pulled deeply into myself. I hid in my home and shut myself off from the world. I told myself it was to heal, but I am not a healer, so I didn’t heal. My wounds festered, the holes in me widened, additional pieces of me fell off onto the floor and shattered.

How I Got to Hope

So how did I get to hope and healing? I spent years crying out to God, “this isn’t sustainable,” “this is untenable,” which I touched on it in my first post, under the heading The Gift of “BE:”

God did a few things in my heart to move me from despair to hope:

1. God spoke the word “Be” into my spirit. And that first post details how through my cat Milo the Holy Spirit showed me how to “be” in the moment. Through this lesson on “be” my focus shifted from trauma to being in the present. Milo’s purring, the sound of the wind in the trees, the chirping of the birds on the electrical wires, etc. all helped to center me and anchor me in the present where the trauma was not happening.

2. God encouraged me to reach out to a church to pray for me. In James 5:14-16 it states: ¹⁴ Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. ¹⁵ And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. ¹⁶ Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
   
   As the scripture states prayer is effective and powerful. The prayers offered up on my behalf by the church and my act of obedience to God to contact the church for prayer moved me from a space of deep darkness to light. It is a mystery to me how it happened and only can be explained as an act of God’s mercy and grace.

3. God led me to scriptures about His promises of hope and not despair:

   1. Proverbs 13:12 (NIV): "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."

   2. Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV): "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

   3. Psalm 94:19 (NKJV): "In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul."

   4. Psalm 34:18 (NIV): "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

   5. Romans 15:13 (NIV): "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

   6. Isaiah 41:10 (NIV): "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

   7. Lamentations 3:22-23 (NIV): "Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."

   8. Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV): "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

4. God encouraged me to join a church (I decided to join the church that prayed for me). Through that act of obedience and adherence to Hebrews 10:25 (NIV): "Not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching." brought me much needed connection.
   
   At a leadership conference that I attended January 25, 2025 just over one year since I joined the church, I approached one of the leaders to thank her. I told her that her touchpoints after I joined the church and her being intentional made me feel welcomed. Every Sunday, she would give me a hug and say an encouraging word. For the first few months after joining the church she provided human contact that I was devoid of the previous 10 years. She didn’t know I was shut-in for a decade from trauma. She didn’t know that she was pretty much the only human contact I would have until the next week. She didn’t know how healing her touch, smile and words of encouragement were to me. She didn’t know until I told her on January 25th how much her kindness meant to me. A gift most certainly given to her from God.

5. God instructed me to forgive. December 2023 I started reading the book The Bait of Satan by John Bevere. It took me months to finish the book, because the book has you working on some hard heart stuff. Through the book I realized that I had a mountain of offense that was drowning me in unforgiveness. And as I began to forgive all of the people who offended me and institutions that harmed me the weight of despair was lifted off of me and I moved into Hope. I will touch on this more in a future article on forgiveness.

Through the five things I shared above regarding God’s instruction and my act of obedience I experienced God’s gifts of healing, mercy, grace and hope. For me getting to hope wasn’t immediate. During my times of prayer I told the Lord that 2024 was a year of consecration. The Lord responded to me that 2024 was a year of restoration. Through acts of obedience and adherence to God’s word, intentional and consistent times of prayer and worship God met me in powerful healing ways. Each and every single day I thank God for His Peace and Joy. And I pray for Wisdom. I encourage you to do the same.

How Can You Get to Hope

Pray and ask the Holy Spirit. Trust God to speak to you. Be transparent. Your prayer doesn't have to be polished. It can be messy. God isn't insulted by your mess. He wants you to come as you are and trust that He speaks and will speak to your situation and bring you to wholeness, healing, and HOPE.

With trauma, despair, and brokenness, hope can feel like an elusive, distant dream. But through God's grace and guidance, hope became a reality. It was a process that required trust, obedience, and allowing myself to be vulnerable before God and others.

It’s important to remember that healing isn’t linear. There will be moments where it feels like progress is slow or that you’re moving backward. But healing is happening in those moments, too, even if it’s not immediately visible.

If you are feeling like Humpty Dumpty, shattered and beyond repair, remember this: You are not your trauma. Your identity is not defined by what has happened to you but by who God created you to be. In His hands, what is broken can be made whole again.

As Psalm 147:3 (NIV) reminds us: “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”

Let God bind up your wounds and lead you to hope, just as He led me. Your trauma does not define you—hope does.

Mindfulness: Hope

Words of Encouragement

Beloved I hope the sharing of my testimony of moving from trauma to hope is helpful to you. And that you watch the video I made on Mindfulness: Hope and use it as a directive meditation. You are not your trauma. Hope is there for you and you can live in peace.

Remember to follow the Meditate – Pray – Apply model: read the verses in context, reflect on their meaning, pray earnestly, and look for ways to live out God’s Word.

Day 1: Reflect

MEDITATE:
Proverbs 2:6 NLT

For the Lord grants wisdom! From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.”

Reflect on the source of wisdom and what this scripture reveals about God's nature. Wisdom is a divine gift, attainable through a close relationship with God and reverence for His teachings.

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And yet, in all this striving—in all this "getting"—let us not forget the most important acquisition: Wisdom.

There is nothing wrong with seeking resources, affection, or political engagement to improve our lives. But if we focus solely on things that nourish the body and mind while neglecting what builds the spiritual man, we miss the mark. God encourages us to seek wisdom.

Each morning, we should thank God and ask for wisdom. Why? Because wisdom is the foundation of everything. We admire the wise and marvel at the brilliance of geniuses, yet Scripture reminds us that this same brilliance is available to anyone who simply asks God.

Proverbs 2:6 declares, “For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding.”

Proverbs 4:7 adds, “The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom, and whatever you get, get insight.” The Hebrew word for insight (or discernment) speaks to understanding, good judgment, mature comprehension, and logical interpretation. But how can we gain this discernment? By first acquiring wisdom.

How to Acquire Wisdom

James 1:5-6 gives us the answer:

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.”

It is the Father’s good pleasure to give us wisdom. He does not measure our worthiness, scrutinize our character, or withhold wisdom as a reward for good behavior. Instead, He gives generously to all who ask—without hesitation or judgment. The only requirement is that we believe and trust that He will give it.

Wisdom is for Everyone

Yes, you are worthy of wisdom. God doesn’t leave us in darkness or silence, scrambling to figure things out on our own. He offers wisdom to guide our decisions, illuminate our path, and enable us to thrive in every area of life. Whether you’re making decisions about work, relationships, or your spiritual journey, God will provide the insight you need.

Beloved, trust God and pray for wisdom daily. He is faithful to answer.

This week we examined Peter’s request to walk on the water and Jesus’ response: “Come.” We learned how the invitation is extended to us and that we can boldly respond to Jesus’ invitation in our lives. This week’s devotion will help you grow in your trust and boldly step out in faith.

Day 1: God Will Be With You

MEDITATE:
Isaiah 43:1-2

"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you."

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When Peter asked to walk on the water, Jesus said, “Come.” That same invitation is extended to you today. When God calls you across the waters, He is inviting you to a deeper faith in Him—to witness His power, experience His provision, and see His glory.

Like Peter, He says to you, “Come. Walk on the water with Me. Keep your eyes on Me. Don’t focus on the turbulent seas; I’ve got you.” That's a powerful thought!

Matthew 14:24-33 NIV

²⁴ and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it. ²⁵ Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. ²⁶ When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. ²⁷ But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

²⁸ “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
²⁹ “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. ³⁰ But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” ³¹ Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

³² And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. ³³ Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

When Jesus called Peter to step out of the boat, it wasn’t just an invitation to a miraculous act—it was a call to trust Him in the face of the impossible. Stepping out required Peter to leave the safety of what was familiar and comfortable. The waters represented uncertainty, fear, and the unknown, but Jesus’ presence and call transcended all of that.

In the same way, God often calls us out of our comfort zones—into “deeper waters” where our faith is stretched, refined, and strengthened. Like Peter, when we keep our eyes on Jesus, we can rise above life’s storms. However, when we allow our focus to shift to the chaos around us, doubt creeps in, and we begin to sink.

Peter’s experience is a reminder for us. When he looked at the wind and waves, he stopped walking in God’s strength and began relying on his own understanding. As Proverbs 3:5 reminds us, we are not to “lean on our own understanding.” The moment Peter shifted his gaze, he began to sink into fear.

But here’s the beauty of this story: Peter cried out, “Lord, save me!”—and Jesus immediately reached out His hand and caught him. Jesus didn’t let him drown, and He won’t let you drown either. Even when we falter, His grace and mercy are there to pull us up.

Jesus’ question to Peter, “Why did you doubt?” challenges us to examine our own hearts. Where are we letting doubt creep in? How often do we let the winds and waves distract us from the One who is in control?

No matter how tumultuous life gets, we must keep our trust anchored in Jesus, not in our circumstances. When storms rage, keep your eyes on Him. And if you find yourself sinking into doubt, don’t hesitate to cry out to God. His hand is always outstretched, ready to lift you up and steady your footing.

I’ll Meet You in the Fire

The three Hebrew boys in Daniel had no idea that they would be saved from the fire, but their faith did not waver. We are called to have uncompromising faith like those three Hebrew boys. Not to doubt and sink like Peter, but to trust that the God you serve has you. They didn't know the Son of Man would show up in the fire. But they didn't waver in their faith.

The story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in Daniel 3 is such a profound example of unwavering faith. They faced a life-or-death situation, and their response was powerful:

Their faith wasn't rooted in the expectation of deliverance from the fire, but in their commitment to remain faithful to God, regardless of the outcome. They didn’t know the Son of Man would show up in the fire, but their confidence in God was not dependent on their circumstances. It was an uncompromising faith, one that trusted God's sovereignty and goodness no matter what.

This challenges us to cultivate that same steadfast faith, one that doesn't waver in the face of trials, doubts, or the unknown. Like the three Hebrew boys, we are called to trust that the God we serve will be with us through the fire—whether or not He delivers us in the way we expect. Faith is about standing firm, knowing that God has us, even in the most difficult of circumstances.

Beloved are you called to walk across the water? Have confidence that God will meet you and not let your feet fail. In 2024 a dear friend of mine shared that God is calling her across the waters. She wasn’t certain what it meant. It is only recently that I realized what God was saying to her.

I was reading the passage of scripture in Matthew when Peter walks across the water - recognizing that everything Jesus did was with intentionality. Noticing the hand of God holding the boat back with the wind. Another opportunity for the Apostles to experience God’s miraculous power. And Peter saying Lord, if its you bid me come. And Jesus responds Come - a word reverberating through time compelling us all to walk across the water. To keep our eyes fixed on him and not the surrounding storm, knowing that if God called us that He’s got us.

Worship With Me - Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep my faith will stand

And I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine, oh

And You are mine, oh

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
—repeat 5x

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Joel Houston / Matt Crocker / Salomon Lighthelm

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) lyrics © Capitol CMG Publishing

This devotional honors Fannie Lou Hamer, a woman of faith, justice, and courage. May her legacy continue to inspire us to stand, speak, and believe. Hamer’s life reminds us that abiding in God’s presence produces fruit—not just for ourselves but for others. Let Fannie’s witness encourage you as you press in to produce much fruit in your life.

Day 1: Faith That Refuses to Bow

MEDITATE:

Daniel 3:16-18

¹⁶ Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. ¹⁷ If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. ¹⁸ But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”

Fannie Lou Hamer refused to bow to injustice. Though beaten, threatened, and silenced, she stood firm, trusting that God’s justice would prevail. Her life echoes the courage of those who refused to worship false idols, choosing instead to walk through the fire of oppression with unwavering faith.

PRAY:

Lord, give me the courage to stand firm like Fannie Lou Hamer. When I face trials and opposition, help me to trust in You, knowing that Your justice is greater than any earthly power. Let my faith be unshakable, even in the fire. In Jesus’ mighty name I pray, Amen.

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Where in your life is God calling you to stand boldly for truth? Consider how Fannie Lou Hamer faced threats with courage. Ask God to strengthen your resolve in the face of challenges.

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In John 15:4-5, Jesus invites us to abide in Him as the true vine, promising that as we remain connected to Him, we will bear much fruit. Abiding in God is not a passive state of simply securing our ticket to heaven; it is an active partnership, resting in His promises while courageously stepping into the work He calls us to do.

Fannie Lou Hamer, a fierce civil rights leader, knew this truth deeply. Her abiding relationship with God gave her the strength to endure beatings, imprisonment, and relentless opposition. She famously said, "Is this America, the land of the free and the home of the brave, where we have to sleep with our telephones off the hooks because our lives be threatened daily?" Yet, even in the face of such adversity, she never wavered in her faith or commitment to justice.

Hamer’s life reminds us that abiding in God’s presence produces fruit—not just for ourselves but for others. She lived John 15:7: "If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." She asked for freedom, justice, and dignity for her oppressed sisters and brothers, and her life bore the fruit of her prayers.

Today, we are called to abide in God as Hamer did. Abiding doesn’t mean turning a blind eye to injustice while waiting for heaven. It means standing in the gap for the oppressed, trusting in God’s power to move mountains, and being intentional about letting His justice roll like a mighty river (Amos 5:24).

Fannie Lou Hamer’s Powerful Testimony

Let’s ask God to free those who are being targeted and oppressed. Let’s pray for courage to act, wisdom to speak, and strength to persevere. Let us abide in Him so deeply that our lives, like Hamer’s, overflow with the fruit of justice, mercy, and hope.

Fannie Lou Hamer Documentary

This Black History Month, let Fannie Lou Hamer’s story inspire us to abide more fully and act more boldly. Abiding in God’s presence is not just a personal act of devotion—it’s a call to be vessels of His justice in a world that desperately needs it.

Aligning with God's Purpose

In Monday's post I shared that in March 2005, while on a plane to Jamaica, God asked me a question that would echo in my spirit for years: “Are you living an abundant life?”

At first, I wrestled with the question, assuming it stemmed from my sense of burnout and unease. I was overworked, undervalued, and stretched thin. At the time, I thought the answer lay in doing more—traveling, forming friendships, and embracing new experiences. On that trip to Ocho Rios, Jamaica, I convinced myself that abundant life must mean pursuing joy through outward actions.

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In March 2005, while flying to Jamaica, God quietly asked me, "Are you living an abundant life?" At first, the question perplexed me. Was He asking because I was troubled in my spirit? I wrestled with it during my vacation, trying to piece together an answer. At the time, I assumed the trip itself—my first to the Caribbean—was part of His answer. But I was wrong.

Looking back, I realize I misunderstood the question. I had equated "abundant life" with travel, relaxation, making friends, and perhaps even dating. For years, I answered this question in a way that focused on outward experiences rather than inward transformation.

It wasn’t until 2024, during a season of fasting and prayer, that I was gently reminded of the true meaning of abundant life. I revisited John 10:10, where Jesus says:

I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

This verse led me to an important realization: my understanding had been incomplete. God’s idea of an abundant life is far deeper than material success, physical health, or social activities.

What Does the Bible Say About Abundant Life?

In Scripture, an abundant life is marked by meaning, purpose, joy, and spiritual fulfillment. It is life enriched by God’s love, peace, and joy. It is not defined by what we possess but by the depth of our relationship with Him.

Consider the “fruit of the Spirit” in Galatians 5:22-23: The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law. These qualities are the markers of a transformed life—a life aligned with the Holy Spirit.

Moreover, Jesus highlights that abundant living flows from our heart’s devotion:
Luke 6:45: The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good... for out of the abundance of the heart, his mouth speaks. This verse reminds us that true abundance starts within and manifests outwardly in our actions and words.

Loving God Leads to Abundant Living

Abundant living is rooted in our love for God and obedience to His precepts:

• Luke 10:27: Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’
  This verse captures the essence of abundant living: loving God fully and extending His love to others.

• Philippians 4:8-9: Whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things... And the God of peace will be with you.
  Focusing on what is virtuous and praiseworthy leads to a life filled with peace.

Abundant living is not about avoiding challenges but about walking through them with God’s joy, strength, and purpose. It’s about contentment that transcends circumstances and reflects a life centered on God’s will.

A New Perspective on Abundant Life

When God asked me in 2005 if I was living an abundant life, He wasn’t addressing my travel schedule, social life, or financial success. He was asking if my heart, mind, and actions were aligned with His purpose. If they had been, I wouldn’t have been experiencing burnout—I would have been walking in His joy.

Abundant life is a life in which the fruit of the Spirit is evident. It’s living with trust, leaning on His guidance, and following His precepts. True prosperity isn’t about material gains but about a life filled with love, service, and spiritual fulfillment. This is the abundant life Jesus offers—one that reflects His glory and brings lasting peace.

So let me ask you the same question God asked me:
Are you living an abundant life?

Monday’s post touches on political activity in America that challenges our faith and causes many to lament. These events have divided the church—some rejoice at the misfortune of others, some cry out asking where God is, while others confidently declare that God is in control.

This week’s devotional will focus on the intersection of pride and humility, calling us to intercede for our nation, seek God’s justice, and walk in the humility Christ modeled.

Day 1: The Fate of the Wicked

MEDITATE:

Psalm 37:35-36

³⁵ I have seen a wicked, ruthless man, spreading himself like a green laurel [bay] tree.
³⁶ But he passed away, and behold, he was no more; though I sought him, he could not be found.

Reflect on the temporary nature of earthly power and the certainty of God's justice.

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